About Maya
I know this tunnel from the inside.
I grew up in a small village in Central Java, where children were expected to obey and not ask too many questions. The problem was, I questioned almost everything. Whenever I tried to be myself, or to look for something more, I heard the same words: "Apa kata orang? Mau jadi apa kamu?" What will people say? What will become of you?
So I learned to stay quiet. I held in my anger and kept what I really felt to myself. I ran away from home at 13, and again at 16. At 18, I moved to Jakarta. I worked in several places, working hard to survive while I studied, and some days lived on just rice and sambal.
I thought I was finally free. The truth was far from it. For 15 years, I built very high walls to protect myself. I sank to the lowest point of my life, until in the end my body collapsed. In a whole week, I could only get about three or four hours of real sleep.
That's when I decided to go to therapy, to learn, and to try to understand myself more deeply. Learning about the nervous system, and how our bodies respond to what we live through, truly changed my life. Now my mission is to walk alongside women in that same tunnel, so they can find their way out and start living differently.